Maybe you kissed him because you felt vunerable and he was something manly to protect you?
Have a proper think, do you love him?
Or was it just a moment thing?
If you are under 18, and he is over 18,I'm not going to patronise you, but have a serious think about doing anything else, or going any further, because if you get found out, he could get in big trouble.
He could get fired and banned from working with kids and maybe even imprisoned if you do anything ***ual.
My advice to you is to wait till things have settled down at home, so you're not under the influence of any unusual emotions, and then follow your heart.
If it leads you to him, so be it.
Good luck with whatever you choose
